Sometimes I wonder if I'm constantly messing up my child. Do I give in too often? Do I love her too much? Do I not discipline her enough?
Coming back from Disney Princesses on ice tonight was one of those times.
She was a mess.
Scratch that. She was good for the first half. 45 minutes, pretty decent. She loved Tiana and Cinderella, and of course Mickey and Minnie. She loved being with her BFF Aubri. She enjoyed sitting on Daddy's lap with Aubri and then Mommy's lap, with Aubri. She had been so excited for days to go tonight and we were enjoying her excitement.
Enter Act 2. Disaster transport.
She was a mess, as I was saying. Wanted to sit with daddy, get down, climb the glass (we were first row of the second level balcony, aka scary), lick the glass, climb the stairs, etc. she was rude to mommy, to Aubri, to her new friend Ella (Mommy's coworker's daughter). She yelled, screamed, cried. The worst was when Aubri left to go potty. Commence Next World War. We ended up walking into the concourse, where she then ran all over.
In the moment, I feel like she's the worst kid ever and I'm the worst mom ever for whatever I have or have not done that led to this behavior. Now writing about it, I feel like maybe she's just a normal 2 1/2 yr old and maybe I'm not doing everything wrong.
90% of the time, Anna is so much joy and a sweet angel. But the other 10% gives me amnesia of the 90 and overtakes all of my rational thought.
The worst is our sleeping situation. The verse/song "weeping may remain for the night but joy comes in the morning," haunts me. Weeping does come at night and the only morning joy is knowing the night is over but now I'm exhausted. If she would just stay in her bed!!! It's been months. I truly don't think I've slept through the night in 3 1/2 years (since before I was pregnant. 6 hours is a luxury. And it's never 6 hours straight. Ha! What's that like. I want to pump her full of medicine to make her sleep. Or at least drug me.
Well I think she's asleep so I better get on it while I can. Hopefully there's no weeping tonight, fingers crossed!
Pretty sure you're not messing up your child! I'm sure the 10% is just being a 2.5 year old :) but sorry about the sleep, that totally sucks. I don't have any suggestions that would also not include drugging, lol, but I can sympathize! It won't last forever!
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