I'm Pregnant!

I woke up this morning at 8:30AM.

I had to pee.  bad.

Your dad was sleeping and I hated to wake him up, especially since I knew he hadn't had much sleep.  But it was important.

"I have to pee." I whispered.
"Then go pee."
"I'm gonna pee on a stick."

That got his attention.  My period was 10 days late, and we had hoped it was true.  We had bought a pregnancy test last night at Meijer.  Today was the day to find out.

I opened it up as your dad tried to adjust his eyes to being awake.  I read the directions, wanted to make sure I didn't screw it up.  Then I saw I didn't have to pee on the stick, thank goodness, I could pee in a cup and dip the stick in it.  So that's what I did.

We left the stick on the counter and waited the required 2 minutes.  Then we both looked at the same time and it was a plus sign!  I immediately started crying, happy tears of course, but also scared tears.  Your dad got teary too.  We were hugging and jumping and crying all at the same time.  It was absolutely unreal.

Of course I wanted to tell people right away, but he wouldn't let me call anyone.  We went to the computer and started looking stuff up.  First we found my due date, which should be around June 21, 2010.  Crazy.  Then we watched a video that told us this week your heart would be developing.  Talk about unreal.  Last week your brain developed.  I ate a lot of Mexican last week, maybe you'll speak Spanish well?  We learned that you are the size of a sesame seed.  So tiny, yet so big in our lives.

We went back to bed, first praying for the new life inside of me.  I couldn't sleep right away.   According to the website, I was 5 weeks pregnant.  They start counting from the date of my last period, which isn't technically when you were conceived.  I would say Sept 27th, Sept 29th, or October 2nd.  I'm thinking it was the 29th.  I remember that night.  We were celebrating our 3 yr anniversary a week early because your dad was going to a conference the following week and we would be apart.  We went to Olive Garden for dinner.  When we came home, I had lit candles all over the room.  Ok, I won't get into details.  But it was special.  I kept thinking about all the places you've already been.  Homecoming at Alma, the college I went to, was October 9 and 10th.  You had already been there, and you went to your first fraternity party!  I know, bad mom.  You went to the church I attended in college.  You were with me when we celebrated our 3 year anniversary being married.  You were with me at the work Halloween party we had been to.  I wanted to be a pregnant nun while your dad was a priest.  How true that would have been!  Instead we went as Sarah Palin and he was a Gangster.  Your dad is pretty funny, by the way.  I'm sure you already know that though.

The first people we told was Craig and Nicole, our pastor and his wife.  We had a fall festival with Paradox (that's the name of our church, you've been there already too).  Someone had asked us how our week was.  We both looked at each other and answered, "pretty good."  We were bursting at the seams to tell people!  But we have to wait...

So back to Craig and Nicole.  We were just about to leave the festival, but I had said earlier that I wanted to tel them.  We first grabbed Nicole and said we wanted to talk to her and Craig.  As your dad went to get Craig, she turned to me and said "Are you pregnant? Is that what this is? You're pregnant!?"  All I could do was giggle.  Then your dad told them that I peed on a stick and it was positive.  Craig made a funny joke that we'll tell you when you're older.  They were both very happy for us and hugged us.  Yay!

The next people we told were Eric and Allison.  We had gone over their house for dinner and a movie, and we told them the same thing, that I peed on a stick and it was a plus sign.  They were very happy too.

We then made plans to tell our parents on Monday.  More on that later...

I have to tell you, I can't even believe it.  I keep looking at the plus sign, thinking it's not really a plus, I must be wrong.  There's no way I have a baby in me!  I'm so excited, but so scared at the same time.  I'm trying to do everything I can to give you a good development.  I'm trying to eat well, not a lot of sugar, no caffeine, everything I can do to keep you safe.  Your dad prays for you every night before bed.  He's going to be such a great dad.

Love you little sesame seed!